You are the difference

So, far we’ve been told where to be and what to do every second of our life - everything we have ever known our whole life has been outlined for us. If we try to break out from this - we are disciplined. We have created a system which runs us, although we don’t rule the system anymore, the system rules us. 

So now we are trained to be fearful of being different. The funny thing is we are all so different, yet we are all trying to be the same, not out of choice but out of fear. So where are we now? We are at the end of our schooling life and what paths do we have laid out ahead of us? University or a job… nothing else. That’s it. Anything else isn’t supported or allowed. So we decide what the outcome of our life will be at 17 years old.

So where to next? Well this is the real catch - I am willing to offer you 3 million dollars - but here comes the truth no one wants you to know, or they hope you will overlook. I’ll give you 3 million dollars but you have to give me 50 years of your life. You wouldn’t take it and I doubt many would. So then… why do you? You accept what you’re told and you get a job, you work for an average wage for the rest of your life and then you realise you’re now 67 years old. You have a little bit of money saved, but your life expectancy has increased dramatically. You can’t retire so you work another 10. You are now 77 and are thinking of retiring. You check your savings and see what you can spare each year until you are 90. You are just surviving, for the rest of your life.

Now you’ve reached your final few hours. You’re on your death bed and if you are lucky, you are surrounded by your family. You are so thankful of all the times you had and the family you raised. This is the pure joy of life and the whole point of it. In your last few hours you realise, you spent 90% of your life, living in your office, worrying about paying for your bills, scared of speaking out for fear that people may ridicule you. So ultimately you’ve spent your life fearful. Fearful of what might happen, what might not happen and what has happened. 

We believe we have choice, but we don’t - but you don’t know this. The world is being run to profit the few and deny the many. Your whole life you have been tricked into idolising things which are in fact of no value to the human race or this planet. But you think if you achieve money, social status, becoming better than your neighbour, you’ll be happy. You’re lying there in tears because you realise that the only time you should have been comparing yourself to your neighbour was to see if they were in fact okay. You then realise you are still stuck in this mind frame they bred into you. You shouldn’t have only focused on your neighbour but on the planet and everything on it. We have a responsibility to the planet to take care of it and give back more than we take, but we are out of balance. The planet is dying and so are you and you realise there is nothing you can do about it. Your time is running out and you look back and realise that you never completed your life purpose. Then you remember that you’re not dead yet. With what little energy you have left, you write a small but powerful note to those who have not been awakened.

So what will your note say?

-Em Carey

The person who wrote this wonderful piece is Em Carey and she has encompassed all I am feeling in several paragraphs. I have been reading it over and over again. Continuing to ask myself, what will my note say? 

Dear Life

"What if you wake up someday, and you're 65 or 75, and you never got your memoir or novel written; or you didn't go swimming in warm pools and oceans all those years because your thighs were jiggly and and you had a nice big comfortable tummy; or you were just so strung out on perfectionism and people-pleasing that you forgot to have a big juicy creative life, of imagination and radical silliness and staring off into space like when you were a kid? Its going to break your heart. Don't let this happen" 

Shout out to my beautiful partner in crime who will always be the JayZ to my Beyonce 

WOODSTOCK

When I stumbled across the recent look book by Tree of Life I knew I had to share it. Everything about this is perfection, from the Penny Lane inspired fur coat to the embroidered detailing throughout the whole range. I instantly wanted to buy the entire range, run into a field and try and recreate these beautiful images. 

Tree of life you are everything I dream about bottled into one shop. I not only want to dress in these magical creations all day everyday, I also want to deck my house out in all their magical home wares. Oh a girl can dream.

XX

CROSSROADS

I loved you. 

But they say love is pain.

Love is not pain, love is, 

brilliant, enchanting and magical.

Pain is betrayal, disappointment and 'being left behind'

I was the love and you were the pain. 

I would have done anything

but you chose to do nothing. 

I recently went on a road trip around New Zealand. I was there to celebrate the joining of two people in love. At the same time I was trying to move forward from my own broken heart. 

The trip was amazing and I could not be more overjoyed for the happy couple. For the time I spent in New Zealand I forgot about myself and enjoyed the love and happiness of others. 

I have since returned home and have continued spreading and feeling all of these amazing vibes. I think because on the outside I appeared like I was moving forward - I was happy and healthy - everyone just assumed that I was fine. I hadn't spoken about my last partner I hadn't even looked at a single image or video however, everyone was thinking it was because I was strong, that I had removed all of the negativity he caused… To be honest it was just because I didn't want to relive anything. Why would I talk, look, reminisce about someone who broke my heart? 

Don't forget that to love is to experience something amazing. If that person does not treat you with the love you deserve in return, it is still ok to want them. To love them. To think about them. I knew I deserved better so I moved forward as much as that hurts. It may break your heart, but you will be ok. There is so much joy in the world do not stay waiting for someone to love you when there are others who already do. So instead of reminiscing over someone that is no longer apart of my life, I am going to reminisce on some amazing memories.  

Here is a snapshot of my time whilst trekking around New Zealand.  

XX